Happy New Year everyone!
I hope you are all well and recovering from last night’s festivities. Or maybe you took a chapter from our playbook and engaged in some Netflix, chill and in bed by 10:00. It was so cold last night, I was happy to be on the couch, dressed in my finest designer sweatpants sipping on a hot cocoa.
So today was also pretty relaxed. I spent some quality time with my boys and prepared for my first day back at work tomorrow. Yup. Maternity leave has come to an end and here I am on the eve of my return trying to convince myself how great it will be to be back at work. Right?
Uh. Yeah. Sure.
Maybe I’m being a drama queen but I really didn’t think going back to work would be this difficult. I mean the world I know and love is about to change whether I’m ready or not.
Now I enjoy working and being around people so the thought of staying at home alone raising a baby for an entire year wasn’t exactly the most wonderful thing on the planet. And certainly it was indeed tiring, overwhelming, even isolating at times. Looking back on those first few months, I can remember being so scared to even take Ethan out for a walk. But then, it slowly got easier.
Gradually, Ethan and I got into a routine where we napped together, played together, and learned to live in the moment. Each day was an adventure and while some days were planned to the nines, other days we just took it by the hour. No matter what was in store, we had each other and for the entire day. But now, I’m going to have to adjust from seeing him all the time to only a few hours at night. I know I’m not alone in this and there are other moms feeling the same heartbreak and guilt that I’m feeling but it still isn’t easy.
If I have one piece of advice for new moms or dads, listen to me when I tell you to savor every moment. I heard this advice from everyone but I didn’t believe them until now. Try and be present and drink up each laugh, coo and new discovery. Even as I write this I’m afraid to go to sleep and wake up an empty nester. Crazy eh? I know that I will be okay and the feelings I’m experiencing are temporary, but one thing is for sure, this is definitely going to be a new normal.
How did you feel at the end of your maternity/paternity leave? Do you enjoy being a full time parent?
Please jump into the conversation. I would love to hear from you.