May Goals

Happy weekend!

I can hardly believe a new month is upon us and all I can say is thank goodness.  I’m completely over April, a month that was filled unexpected twists and turns.  On to a fresh new start but first, the weekly Weight Watchers update:

Notice something a little unusual?  That lovely little hill is going in the wrong direction.

Gaining 6 lbs in two weeks, while working in a gym?  Not my finest moment.  While I’m proud of myself for getting to my meeting this week (I even walked there and got in 20,000 steps yesterday), it’s time to break the bad habits I’ve developed this month.  April was filled with constant excuses and do-overs.  Too many times I uttered the words, “I’ll start again tomorrow”.

While this week’s topic focused on being kind to ourselves, I would argue that have been a little too kind.  I practice self-compassion on the daily but in order to truly love myself, and to feel body positive about my body, I need to do what I feel is right to meet my goals.

Here’s the thing:  while this is an overall health and wellness journey, the bottom line is I want to lose weight.  In fact, I’m quite a few pounds away from my desired goal weight and part of why I’ve fallen off the wagon is this guilt for wanting to lose weight.  Kinda crazy, eh?

Throughout this journey, and especially as I get closer to goal, I have been struggling with trying to balance being body positive and wanting to lose weight.  Of course I want to be at peace with who I am as a whole person but on the other hand, I’m striving to be the best version of myself possible.  And at the end of the day, I’m the only one who knows what that looks like.  I understand that some of you may think I’m being super harsh.  But at the end of the day, I’m doing what I need to do, to get where I want to go.  And part of that is speaking up, owning my mistakes and being unafraid of offending anyone out there who may see my journey as anything but body positive.

Ok. Phew.  Glad I got that out.  And now, on to the May goals:

1. I’m participating in Kate and James Blue Dot Challenge for the month of May.  I’ve never really focused on blue dots before (you get a blue dot for every day that you stay in your points range) but I’m thinking its time I start.
2. Work out 5 times a week, at least 30 minutes of movement 5 times a week.
3. No sugar.  Too risky.  This will be the most challenging but I need to detox.
4. Blog at least three times a week (this isn’t necessarily a weight-related goal but a productivity and accountability goal).
5. Meal plan on Saturdays.  Meal prep on Sundays.

So there it is. Five goals that I do believe are SMART (as we discussed on Monday post). While I’m thinking I may not win my dietbet, it’s safe to say I’m feeling in a pretty good mindset for this weekend and for the upcoming month.

I really hope everyone has a great week.  Please feel free to jump into the conversation.  What does being body positive mean to you?

Until next time,

xo

Jen